So I've noticed a few things having had moved out.
I imagined myself going to Disneyland before shift, after shift, and all days off. So what am I doing now on these two days I have off?
Last night I went home from DL three hours before closing, and today, if I go at all, it'll be to ride Splash Mountain once or twice and see Fantasmic.
Has DL lost it's appeal? HECK NO!
Has TOONTOWN lost its appeal? A million times YES. All I can think of is work when I get near there. Work isn't UNBEARABLE but it's not a great role either. It's a nice in-between that gets me through my days. My coworkers consider me to be the quiet outcast and I like it that way. Two reasons mainly: one, I'm the 'outcast' because I tend to be all-business at work and because I'm the youngest one by far there, and two because anyone who knows me well knows that a job where I can concentrate on my work independently. I have my own personal ways of coping with undesirable situations, so it gets me through.
I also don't know where I'd be without my friends. My "links to the old world" I call them. I miss them dearly but many of my friends who have gone through this assure me that the sting goes away eventually.
I've noticed that it's not just home I miss, it's being a kid I miss. And I simply can't do that forever. It's that thought that stops me from going back. It's been a roller coaster. I'm happy to be here and then not happy to be here, over and over. I suppose that'll go away soon too.
But anyway, as I was saying, DL has not lost it's appeal at all. On the contrary, I grew up in DL and it is my second home. I've just realized what being an adult is like: my idea of a day off is sitting in the house and doing NOTHING.
I'm enjoying it though. Tomorrow is a 4 hour shift which is especially nice.
I just went grocery shopping all on my own with my own money and felt REALLY darn cool doing so. I'm sure that'll wash away on it's own as well :P
I'm off to do more laundry, nap, and hopefully get to DL.
-Baby Rabbit <3
